I Chose Peace
As I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized something important, life is not a competition. Not with other women. Not with anyone.
What I have realized is that the more I grow, the more I naturally lead. And when you lead quietly and confidently, others notice. Some are inspired. Some follow. And some get uncomfortable, and that’s okay.
I’ve learned that even when I mind my business and simply do me, it still bothers them. Not because I’m loud. Not because I’m flashy, but because confidence without explanation is triggering to people who are still stuck in comparison and a victim mentality.
I’m proud of where I stand today. Not because my life is easy, because it isn’t, and anyone who actually knows me knows that. They don’t see the struggles I carry, the trauma I’ve lived through, the silent battles I fight daily. They don’t see the rebuilding, the strength it took to stand back up, without wearing my pain as an identity. What they also don’t hear is me complaining.
You don’t hear me broadcasting my problems. You don’t hear me crying to the world about what I’m dealing with because I don’t. I keep a lot of it bottled inside, and I take my thoughts, my worries, and my fears straight to Hashem. At the end of the day, no one else is fixing my problems for me anyway, so I don’t need an audience for my pain. I move quietly. I plan in silence. I take my trips, reset, come back, and no one needs to know. My life doesn’t require announcements to be meaningful.
Yet still, people assume.
I’ve learned to bite my tongue. Not because I have nothing to say, not because I’m shy, and definitely not because I’m scared. If you knew who I used to be, you’d understand that my calm today is earned, not accidental.
Now?
I sit back because I’ve already lived trauma. I’ve seen drama. I’ve witnessed what it does to people, and I refuse to involve myself in it again. I don’t mind losing anyone who thrives on negativity or a constant victim mindset. I’ve outgrown that space.
Sometimes we really do have to grow up. Stop waiting for someone else to pull us out of the hole we’re sitting in. No one is coming to save you. You save yourself with positivity, with faith, with accountability.I’ve never been one to brag, it’s simply not in my nature. But I’m also aware of the fire inside me. I recognize the strength I carry, and I see the impact in how I live, how I influence others, how I lead, and how I stand with pride.
I smile, I laugh, I love, and move on.
I always remember that Hashem places people in our lives for a reason. Even the difficult ones. They are our messengers. Not to break us, but to teach us where we’ve grown, where we still need strengthening, and how deeply we’re capable of choosing peace over chaos.
This is emunah. This is placing your faith in God’s hands, not to punish anyone, but to give you strength, courage, and wisdom. To remind you who you are. To help you keep growing while you keep ignoring the noise.
I know who I am, and I will continue rising quietly, resiliently, and unpredictably.
Keep growing, Keep choosing peace, Keep your mind clear and focused on your goals. Move forward don't look back.
Emunah